…change in perspective leads to action and positive transformation…

Whew!!  After some time to process my “breakdown” my perspective has transformed to “breakthrough”.  My soul cleansing presented with inconsolable crying.  It was a necessary process and left room for fresh energy.

In my process I victimized myself.  I mean, I kept judging myself with negative views. Almost cherry picking situations and results that didn’t look as I had hoped.  I was marinating in that negative energy, allowing it to bring me down, continuing to fill the space I had just made for fresh/new/positive energy with dark sadness/judgement/negative energy.  I needed to take action.  In a previous post I had declared “I am ready to do the work”, now is the time to get busy working…the time for victimizing myself is over!  I Recognize/Acknowledge the courage I have, the strength/resilience/resourcefulness/power…!!!

I have started a daily ritual of yoga and meditation.  In my own silence I can start to hear my “authentic self” inner voice again. It had been muted by my “ego” inner voice for a while now.  My ego is so loud and judgmental. I continued to point the finger, in the mirror, bashing my choices.  Somehow, on my journey to find my authentic self again and start living my life with purpose, I lost the balance.  The balance between self and ego is crucial to transformation to positive intention.  You know, when your heart and your brain are sending you in two different directions…it’s when you can live in the balance, listening to each in synergy that the path becomes more clear.  According to Merriam-Webster “SYNERGY is the benefit that results when two or more agents work together to achieve something either one couldn’t have achieved on its own.  It’s the concept of the whole being greater than the sum of its parts.”  Therefore leading to living life in my best holistic wellness.

I recently had a conversation with a friend.  The reflection I received was this… When we continue to live in the unbalanced darkness, it begins get deeper/darker…continuing to spread…making it difficult to see the light until the light is so dim or sometimes not visible through the darkness, that some give up hope… Give up on the magic that is in all of us.  Practicing living in the feelings, being with them as they come, processing them as they come…instead of pushing down the undesirable/scary ones, over-analyzing the cause and getting lost in the “rabbit hole maze” of “what ifs”…is a life skill that takes a lifetime to develop… giving yourself permission to process/grieve/be angry…whatever the process is, doing the work in your own time, without victimizing yourself, is a challenge we all face…the important point is that your action should lead to moving forward, not to the past/”how it used to be”/focused on trying to figure out what other people are thinking or feeling…this action is futile/wasted energy/”spinning your wheels” and doesn’t lead to the light…all we can expect of ourselves is to honor our own feelings and take actions that lead to positive intention within ourselves, sending out that positive energy attracts it back to you…”THE POWER OF POSITIVE ENERGY…” is real.

I no longer “wait for the right time” … the time is now!

As far as what’s going on in our physical life, I got a “new to us” camper.  I pick it up on May 8th.  The girls and I are so excited.  My beloved Bantam Trail Lite hybrid camper is currently FOR SALE … I’ll be posting pics of our new “Koala” camper soon.  The “Koala” camper is more conducive to living in.

For those of you who don’t know, I’m a Legal Nurse Consultant.  I certified last February, and have been struggling/floundering in my ignorance to build/develop my business.  I continued to reach out to mentors and finally found one that shined a light on me… I’m working on a proven marketing plan and strategy to build my business.  Being my own boss has been a dream of mine and this time I feel the “electric tingling”, you know that feeling when you just “know” …I have the feeling my dreams are going to come true.

I’ve had so many friends express their support and encouragement, that GYPSY WILD HEALER is currently recording my first podcast.  It will be broadcast soon, I’m not quite finished yet, but I will post where/when/how… I am blessed that sharing my journey/lessons helps others and with helping others I teach myself.  In my blog I try to share my vulnerable self, and the lesson or “message” I received in my process.  In my podcast I hope to take it a step further and suggest actions to lead to positive intention. Of course, continuing to share “DID YOU KNOW ” segments…in both.  The podcast I’m currently working on includes a story about a frog/toad and a shift in his journey.

Jirakee had her last agility class, last evening, she really enjoyed it… perhaps after camp we can continue on to the next level.  She is getting the hang of it…Jannali was able to train for Search and Rescue last week.  It has been a little while since we could get out to train…I work every weekend, nightshift, with that schedule it’s difficult to coordinate, despite the challenges of our schedule she did GREAT!  Both of my girls are happy/healthy! I’m blessed for the love.

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I am truly grateful and blessed …

…I appreciate all of you for following along with our journey.  Please share your thoughts in the comments.  Share our blog with friends/family.  Watch for podcast…